Love

When I was in high school we were often asked to define love. I’ve seen a lot of definitions. Some definitions are romantic while others are religious.

With the definitions I ‘ve seen, it sums up to the feeling of being happy when you are in love.

In my case, I would admit that my love life hasn’t always been happy. There were times where Love has given me the feeling of depression, anger and other negative emotions.

But I believe that I am in love with him, because despite all the pain, it is still him who makes me really happy. It is still him whom I want to be with for the rest of my life. There was a song with these words “I’d rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else”. And that is what I feel.

I love him and this is basically the reason why i wrtite this. He doesn’t read my blogs, but in case he comes accross my blog in the future, this is to inform him that I love him despite all the pain in the relationship.

I always complain about the pain. I always tried to walk out of the relationship. But I love him no matter what. The future is uncertain, but I hope we sustain the test of time.

I love him. I will always do.

Leaving

I am planning to leave my work, my family and our country to try my luck abroad.

As my blog title says “Life is full of risk”. I will never know what lies ahead if I would not try.

I believe those people around me are just concerned about me that is why they are scared about me trying an unfamiliar territory.

Aside from wanting to know my luck when it comes to my career and financial growth, I also want to be with my one true love.

I miss him so much.

Apologies

I am sorry for asking you the wrong questions last night…

I am sorry for not being the girl you want me to be…

I am sorry for being so clingy…

I am sorry for loving you the way that I do…

Project Manager

Yesterday morning, a client went to the office to meet me and my boss.

She is complaining…err…giving an opinion about the consultant we deployed in their company. According to her, it is very obvious that she is not yet prepared for the task.

Later, my boss and I meet with the consultant our client is refering to. I’d like to hate her for being immature. Indeed, I have my shortcomings as a project manager as I have not made enough quality control in my project.

What irritate me the most is not being scolded by my boss but this consultant’s attitude! She has actuations that is inapproptiate for her age. She wouldn’t admit mistakes and wouldn’t accept criticisms. She’s 23 and she’s acting as if she’s just 18.

I hope to finish this projet soon… It is easier being a consultant than being a project manager… Spmetimes, I miss being a consultant…

BLOG

Finally, I am writing and publishing my first blog.

It has been five years since I started wanting to have my own blog. There are so many things to write about, but words just doesn’t come together. My thoughts are scattered.

Hopefully, this will be a wonderful experience of writing again. I am looking forward to do something I really love which I have not done since I started working.

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